Frustrated & Down

It's been more than 2 weeks and we havent had any news on Bao Bao.. It's very frustrating and sad that no one saw her.. Does that mean she is hiding very well? Or she has been taken back home by someone and they kept her as a pet? Or has someone taken her back and intend to use her to breed more puppies? Or she is no longer with us but gone to heaven?

It's very sad and worrying coz we really had no way to know if she is well and alive or is. . . . . .

If she is hiding very well, is it bcoz she heard me making appointment for her sterilization operation in March? She is afraid of the operation and wanted to hide from us bcoz of this.. If it really is, i would give anything to have her back and cancel the operation if that is what she is afraid and wanted to run away from us..

If she is taken back by someone who wanted to keep her as a pet, i really wish that she is treated well and is being treated like a pampered child.. And that the new family will keep her accompany till the day she passes on..

If she is taken back and ppl wanted to use her to breed more puppies, i really want them to give her back to me and i wouldnt mind giving them money just for her safe return..

If she is no longer with us but in heaven, i only hope that whatever causes her to die at such a young age doesnt cause her much pain.. I will hope that she knows that we love her very much and had been crying all this while she is missing.. The family isnt complete without her..

If only we can turn the clock back.. If only one of us can foresee the future.. If only that day i didnt have flu then could had ran faster and caught her.. If only.. .. Then we wouldnt have lost her.. Then she will be sleeping in our arms.. Then she will be at home welcoming us back home after work.. Then she will be happily playing with Zhu.. That's what i can say, if only..

We will give anything just to have her back.. If only we can get news of her being sighted again ard which area..

Where are you??!!

Where are you??!! It's been a week since the day you went missing.. Up till now we haven't got a call from anyone.. It's really very frustrating and sad that no one has seen you.. Are you alright? Where are you hiding? Everyone misses you lots..

Zhu has been whining for you.. She has been leaving her food half finish in the hope that you will appear to eat her food.. She has been searching the whole hse for you.. She always rush to the front door whenever we open it, just hoping to see you standing outside the door.. This is something that she has never done before.. Zhu has been having nightmares since the day you went missing.. Zhu keep going to your sleeping spots to sniff your smell and lick that area like you are still there.. It breaks our hearts to see her do all these and yet still has no news of you.

Mummy and daddy also having nightmares since the day you went missing.. We don't have much appetite.. Daddy had been talking in his sleep, calling out your name over and over again.. Mummy has been having dreams that you are hurt by others, once dreamt that i had found you hanging up on a tree tied by a rafia string on your belly to a branch, once dreamt that i had found you and hug you home.. I swear that after waking up from the dream that i was hugging you, i can feel your fur in my hands even though you weren't here.. I'm really hoping that you are well and is just hiding, waiting for us to find you.. The hse is not the same without you ard..

BaoBao, be careful k.. We will continue to look for you and we love you very much.. Come back to us asap..