My Dearest Little Gal,
We had been going to the Botanic Garden numerous times waiting for you to show up.. When you do show up, we are only few feets away.. So near yet so far.. When you decide to not show up for few days, we got worry and fear for the worst..
After so many times of you showing up and disappearing a few days afterwards, we believe that you are just trying to protect yourself.. Not exposing yourself too much or always at the same time.. To say, we don't fear for you or don't worry at all is not true..
As you should know that Mummy always seen tough at the outside and doesn't cry in front of others, but only to you and Jie Jie ( Zhu Zhu ).. Bcoz Mummy doesn't want anyone to worry, your Daddy already has to worry so much things, i just don't want to add on to his worries.. Mummy had been hugging your Jie Jie, talking to her about my worries for you and frustrated at myself for unable to bring you home, and crying coz it just pains my heart..
It hurts me so, coz it's been months that you had not been at home.. Everytime it's sunny, i will pray that you find a shelter or shade to hide from the sun.. Everytime it rains, i will pray that you find a place to hide from the rain.. Everytime i feed your Jie Jie, it makes me cry, coz you are such a greedy pig and now you had to find food on your own.. We know that you had ransacking rubbish bins finding for food.. But we are so hopeless in catching you back home..
Everytime we feed you, you will go and nap or hide for a few days before appearing again.. We are frustrated but we will not give up on you.. The reason is, you are our little daughter and without you, our family isnt complete..
This few days, there are more kind ladies feeding you and caring for you.. Looking out for you and helping us in trying to get you reunited with us asap.. We are very grateful that they are here to help us.. Almost everytime we ( either daddy or mummy ) rush down after receiving calls that you are seen, by the time we reach there you are already gone into hiding.. Half of our wages had gone to taxi uncles coz we had been taking so many cab rides to BG.. We just want you to know, we love you very much.. Even though we are not rich, we dont mind spending money just to get you back.. That's how much we love and miss you..
My dearest little gal, what should we do in order to get you back home? Tell us pls.. We had been praying so hard for your safety and also for your safe return home.. Even Daddy is making fun of me whenever i pray.. He says that almost all the gods in heaven and my grandparents ( passed away ), knows what i want to pray before i even say anything.. You do know mummy more kiasu than daddy, always do the same thing more times than needed.. Haiz.. But at least our prayers are heard and you had been safe so far, just that you are so much slimmer..
Dont know is it bcoz mummy had been worrying too much that mummy keep getting nightmares and end up falling ill.. Now just recovering from a very bad flu and cough, maybe bcoz mummy had been taking medicines so had been falling asleep more with less nightmares.. Thus mummy also recovering from panda's eyes.. Good thing that mummy had been wearing glasses and not contact lens, so no one had spotted me looking like a panda except family members..
What are you doing right now as mummy types this letter to you? Are you asleep or wandering around? We will keep praying for your safety and safe return.. Also we will not give up until you are home with us..
Loving you always
Mummy
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